anxiety strikes!!!

(I was supposed to post this last week, but it didn’t happen so it’s a few days late)

I went to my doctors appointment last Wednesday and I’m now on once a week check ups.

I go again this Friday, once a week check up makes me nervous or anxious or scared or excited, I haven’t figured it out yet. I think a little of everything.

What also makes me nervous is that the doctor seems to think this baby is coming early and since last Wednesday I’ve been having all sorts of crazy labor dreams.

I know you can’t be totally ready for labor and brining a new baby home, but I just have these strange feelings of I have to finish this or that first.

My shower is on Saturday and the hubby wants me to last till then. I have some things to do at work that I really want to get done with before I go on leave. Why I feel I have these priorities I have no idea.

I really do just want to make it through this weekend, get everything ready and spend some quality time with my son before we totally throw him off adding another one to the mix. I’ve been trying to talk to him and prepare him for what is coming. Of course he seems to understand but when we bring the baby home, I’m sure it’ll be another story.

God, please help me.

Here I am at about 35 weeks, I know I look small, everyone keeps telling me that but I do feel so big and so uncomfortable. 

Update… it’s Sunday night and I made it this far. I survived the shower and I want to share some pictures so bad! Of course I was having too much of a good time to take a single photo.

Thankfully my mother in law and my sister in law was taking pictures so I hope to share them soon!

 

35 Week Update!

It’s hard for me to believe that I’m already at 35 weeks!

This pregnancy seemed to just fly by.

Yesterday I had my check up and we’re now on weekly appointments. Dr thinks I just may not make it till the end of February, and neither do I.

So here goes, these photos are taken 1 day apart.

 

How far along? 35 weeks

Baby’s Size: according to babycenter.com about 5lbs and the size of a honeydew melon

Weight Gain: as of my apt yesterday dr is reporting 24 lbs. That is really different from my son where I had gained over 40 lbs.

Bellybutton: in but completely stretched out

Stretchmarks: thankfully none

Maternity Clothes: Yes definitely most of my clothes are maternity. The jeans in the first pix are just a larger size and not buttoned all the way up. I can still get away with some non-maternity clothes but I’m more comfortable in maternity wear.

Names: I guess! My husband said since I chose the name for our son then he gets to choose the name for this one. We tried and tried to come up with names together but we just can’t agree. He is holding firm on the name he chose and I’m pretty sure if nothing wow’s me and changes my mind before the big day, I’ll let him have it! haha

Gender: Well I have never officially announced what it is but if you follow me on instagram I’m sure you’ve figured it out. Stay tuned another week and I guess I’ll show you when I post pictures from our shower.

Movement: ooh yes, a lot, I’m getting my butt kicked! All up in my ribs and especially at night when I want to sleep!

Sleep: Speaking of sleep! hahaa…. eh, not enough. I’m so tired and exhausted by after lunch. Some nights I get a good sleep but most I’m up with either leg cramps or having to go to the bathroom or something.

Symptoms: I’m still very moody, very impatient. I get really bad indigestion almost every time I eat.

Food Aversions: I really haven’t had any.

Food Cravings: odd thing is just this past week I’ve been craving watermelon thanks to my neighbor! But it’s been too cold to find comfort in a cool juicy watermelon.

What I miss: Feeling normal!! I am so uncomfortable! I miss a good night’s sleep, I miss feet that don’t get swollen at the end of the day. I miss fitting into my clothes! I miss being able to eat like a normal person, right now I can eat only small portions every few hours. I miss being able to put shoes on and actually see my feet! hahaha

What I am Looking forward to: Our shower next week, I’m sure we’ll have a fun time getting together with our friends and family. Also just having the baby already! I’m so done.

Baby Update: 29 Weeks

Wow time is sure flying by, I can’t believe I’m at 29 weeks already! Baby will be here before we know it!

How far along? 29 weeks 4 days (as of today)

Total weight gain: somewhere between 15-20 lbs

Maternity clothes? My bottoms are definitely maternity but I just wear baggy or stretchy tops

Stretch marks? Thank God not yet

Sleep: Just seems like its never enough. Then again I’ve been battling a cold for 2 weeks and we’ve been running back and forth to the hospital to visit my grandma so I am more worn out than usual

Best moment this week: ??

Miss Anything? Being able to walk up a flight of stairs without being out of breath, being able to carry my lil man, a couple glasses of wine with friends, being able to work in the yard, seems like just normal stuff.

Movement: Not as active as my son was but when baby is in the mood, man I get a good kickin’

Food cravings: nothing in particular and I’ve stopped living on junk food, desserts and hagen daz

Anything making you queasy or sick: only brushing my teeth in the morning

Gender: well…. I still haven’t announced it

Labor Signs: except for our little adventure in the hospital, nothing thank God.

Belly Button (in or out): still in but open pretty wide! LOL

Wedding Rings (on or off): off, but then I normally don’t wear my wedding rings.

Symptoms: my feet are getting swollen! With my son my feet only got swollen about 2 weeks before I gave birth, now if I’m on my feet too long or even sitting for too long they get swollen. I also notice that if I stand for too long, it feels very heavy down there, yup down there and I have to sit.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Still very MOODY!

Looking forward to: Getting the baby’s room cleaned and set up and also meeting the newest addition! I know we have a ways to go but we’re so excited and I’m ready to not be pregnant.

Almost down for the count!

So, yes, just as I’m getting back into the swing of things, I get knocked back down!

Two weeks ago, I stop into GNC with my dad and son to pick up some vitamins and supplements for them.

When we’re checking out the boys behind the counter (I say boys because they were obviously younger than me) suggestive sold me some Papaya Enzyme. They said it’s great for your digestive system. Well, gullible me I’m thinking… hmmm I could use a healthy digestive system especially with the pregnancy and prenatal vitamins. Let’s be honest, if you’ve been pregnant you know how backed up you can get!

Long story short I ended up in the hospital with preterm labor just 2 days later.

Just a day short of 25 weeks this was not a good time to go into labor.

We spent several hours in labor and delivery but had the greatest nurses to keep me calm and rested and hydrated. Not to mention starved all I could eat was jello… and lucky me they only had this flavor and I’m allergic to red food coloring.

After 2 doses of meds they stopped the contractions but I was still having some pain and cramping.

They sent me home on bed rest for a week. I thought that was going to be the longest week ever but I was so sore that I literally stayed in bed for the first 2 days miserable.

Besides the tv this was my view.

I began to realize that I was quite gassy and hmmm… smelling of papayas!

I stopped taking the papaya enzyme immediately and by Saturday I was feeling tons better. I Googled papaya enzyme and low and behold one of the possible side effects is gas pains, cramping and preterm labor!

I went to my dr’s for a check up a few days later and yup, I got scolded!

Taking the papaya enzyme while pregnant is a big NO NO! Which is interesting since I know 2 women who have taken papaya enzyme during their pregnancy.

Well its been almost 2 weeks since the little incident and I’m back to normal. No more supplements for me for the rest of this pregnancy!

Which reminds me, it’s definitely time for a baby bump update!

Stay tuned guys

 

 

 

20 Week Update

I know I owe ya’ll an update, last update was oh at 16 weeks when I told ya’ll about my big announcement.

Yes, we have found out the sex and I just haven’t come up with a fun way to tell you guys!

We’ll here I am at 20 weeks.

I thought my loose fitting shirt wasn’t a great picture so I changed into a more fitting tank so you can see the bump. (and you can definitely see those bags under my eyes too)

Ok so here’s the stats…

This week, Baby is the size of a: Banana according to babycenter.com and is about 10 1/2 oz and 6 1/2” long.

How far along? 20 weeks

Due date: February 21, 2013

Total weight gain/loss: at my last appointment on 10/18 I was surprised to hear I had gained only 2 lbs. Yesterday I had to go in to check on some bleeding and I jumped up 5 lbs! So I’m at a total of 7 lbs.

Maternity clothes? I have them but haven’t been using them just yet, I can still get by with my regular jeans just not buttoned, you know ya’ll have used the rubber band trick right!

Sleep: Not as much as I would like to get. A nap would be nice haha. I’m sleeping ok, some nights getting up either once to walk off a leg cramp or to pee.

Best moment this week: Getting to see my lil one on an ultrasound, it was a little unexpected. I didn’t have an appointment but had to go in to get checked so it was nice to get to see an ultrasound. Doctor says we have a modest baby.

Movement: Not as much as with my son or it could be too early to really compare. Feeling tiny little bumps and pops mostly during the day and not too much at night.

Food cravings: Desserts! This past week I’ve had chocolate pie, Oreo McFlurry, what else… maybe that’s why the scales tipped 5 more lbs this past doctor’s visit!

Symptoms: Thankfully the morning sickness has slowly but surely gone away. I am getting better with that thing they call…hmmm… patience? LOL

Gender: What do you guys think?? Any ideas on how I should tell ya’ll??

Labor Signs: Nope, and because of my check up yesterday, I know for sure that I am not dilating or effacing. That is one feeling I could have done without till the day I went into labor!

Belly Button in or out? still in

Feeling toward Pregnancy: Now that I am feeling better, I am getting excited and anxious about all the things I want done before the baby comes. I’m having mixed emotions about bringing another child into the mix and feeling nostalgic about my first born baby. Thankfully talking to other mothers I guess the things I’m feeling are pretty normal.

What I miss: Not feeling bloated!

What I am looking forward to: Getting my son’s big boy room ready for him to move into and then getting the nursery ready.

Milestones: Half way through baby!! I don’t know if that makes me more excited or more anxious. I’m also feeling very relieved to find out my placenta has gone into the right place. At an earlier appointment the doctor showed concern for a very low placenta, then I had bleeding the other night but the last two checks and ultra sounds show that my placenta is in the right place and I do not have placenta previa. I do have what they call a friable cervix so it can get injured easily.

I cant believe I just talked bleeding, placenta and cervix on my blog!! Yikes!

We’ll there it is I can’t believe the countdown will begin soon since we’ve hit the halfway mark!

So, about that big news I had....

Remember we went on vacation?

Well, apparently what happens in Cabo, doesn't stay in Cabo!

I guess, I kinda have had an excuse for my major absence I've been having... I've kinda been, uh well, busy not feeling so well...

How far along? 16 Weeks

Baby’s Size: 4 1/2" long (acording to babycenter.com)

Heartbeat: we got to hear the heartbeat at the last dr apt a few weeks ago and it was at 140 bpm. We also brought our son with us and he was THRILLED to hear his baby's heartbeat and see the baby on the ultrasound.

Weight Gain:  at my last appointment 1.5 lbs since going on my scale about 3 lbs (but feels like 20!)

Bellybutton: in

Maternity Clothes: not yet

Mood: terrible! I've been so short tempered I feel so sorry for my husband and son!

I'll be sure to make it up to them as soon as I feel better!

I cannot stand heat at all! I have not even flat ironed my hair in months!

And to add misery to pain, my ac in my car went out and we had MAJOR problems getting the correct parts in to fix it! Let's just say I've been miserable!

Names: We can't agree on anything yet, but we have agreed to wait to seriously talk about it until next Tuesday

Gender: We'll find out next Tuesday!

Movement: not yet but I feel a lot of stretching going on

Sleep: Not that great and I could use a lot more! Some nights I get up to pee, a few time I woke up with leg cramps, but I started stretching before bed and so far it's made a big difference. I toss and turn a lot, seems like I just can't get comfortable and it's been so hot!!

Symptoms: Oh gosh! I have been so sick! It's slowly getting better but I still get sick and I'm really tired.

Food Adversions: for a while I could not eat roast chicken, I still cannot eat Rasin Bran, anything too oily or with lots of tomato sauce give me really bad heart burn

Food Cravings: pastries, pies, sweet dessert kind of cereal like cinnamon toast crunch, this past weekend it was sweet pickles.

This is all new to me since with my son all I craved was pastele and pinacbet.

What I am Looking forward to: having our level 2 ultra sound, finding out everything is ok and finding out the sex!!

So there it is!

I am slowly feeling better so getting back to kinda normal life.

I am starting to feel stressed out to get a bunch of our home projects checked off the list before the baby comes.

Number one being, getting my son's big boy room ready so we can move him over and use his room as the baby's room since it's across the hall from us.

Oh and one last thing... my mother in law has banned us from going on any more family vacations. My brother in law and his girl friend are due 4 days before us!