Coming to the realization he’s not a baby anymore

(Yes, I know I’ve been absent, I wont make excuses… so on with my post….)

It is happening to me right now and I don’t know how to feel about it.

I swear I feel like this was just last week

And before I knew it I was going back to work and this was the last day mommy and her lil guy had together.

Then the big boy was going out to dinner.

And eating in his own highchair.

In a blink of an eye it was his first birthday.

And yup, blink again it was his 2nd birthday.

Three weeks ago, I find out that he got accepted into Pre School.

We had been waiting for it for a while and we weren’t sure if he would get in.

Now that its real and my baby is going to preschool, I feel so emotional. How did he grow up so fast, how is it that my baby is old enough to go to school?!?!

All these crazy emotions are going through me right now.

The other morning I picked him up out of bed and just wanted to carry him like a baby. I hugged and squeezed him just a little tighter and longer than I normally would have that day and it brought a tear to my eye. (mind you he is more than half my size) It reminded me to make sure to tell my son I love you about a hundred times a day.

He’s been in school for over a week now and he loves it. I see my little boy maturing right in front of my eyes! I have anxiety about will he be a good boy, will he listen, I hope he doesn’t make trouble. Then I have anxiety over will he be the kid that gets picked on? Will he be a follower or a leader? I really do make myself crazy…. he’s a great kid and I love him. His teachers say hes doing great in school and loves problem solving and outdoor play.

Getting him to eat whatever they give him… now that’s a different story.

 

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Pour Your Heart Out