anxiety strikes!!!

(I was supposed to post this last week, but it didn’t happen so it’s a few days late)

I went to my doctors appointment last Wednesday and I’m now on once a week check ups.

I go again this Friday, once a week check up makes me nervous or anxious or scared or excited, I haven’t figured it out yet. I think a little of everything.

What also makes me nervous is that the doctor seems to think this baby is coming early and since last Wednesday I’ve been having all sorts of crazy labor dreams.

I know you can’t be totally ready for labor and brining a new baby home, but I just have these strange feelings of I have to finish this or that first.

My shower is on Saturday and the hubby wants me to last till then. I have some things to do at work that I really want to get done with before I go on leave. Why I feel I have these priorities I have no idea.

I really do just want to make it through this weekend, get everything ready and spend some quality time with my son before we totally throw him off adding another one to the mix. I’ve been trying to talk to him and prepare him for what is coming. Of course he seems to understand but when we bring the baby home, I’m sure it’ll be another story.

God, please help me.

Here I am at about 35 weeks, I know I look small, everyone keeps telling me that but I do feel so big and so uncomfortable. 

Update… it’s Sunday night and I made it this far. I survived the shower and I want to share some pictures so bad! Of course I was having too much of a good time to take a single photo.

Thankfully my mother in law and my sister in law was taking pictures so I hope to share them soon!